Nutrition: 85% (forgot my caesin and whey shake in the evening – minor thing…)
Training: 80% (was abs, but my heart wasn’t in it)
Meditation: 100%
This morning was a tough one. I got up and really didn’t feel motivated. I just want to chill out, relax and do nothing, since it’s been a LONG time since I’ve just done nothing… about 6-7 weeks in total!
So I got up, I passed on my meditation, but went straight in to the gym. As is normal when you’re less than motivated, you’re thinking that ‘I can’t accomplish the weights I did last time…’ and got a pleasant surprise when I was able to match the weights AND surpass them (which makes me think – did I not push hard enough last time????).
Being at the gym really gave me time to think, reflect, and mostly focus on the task at hand – because if you don’t, you’re going to crush yourself under the weight of a weight. And it was good… it gave me focus and more direction for the rest of the day. Which was greatly appreciated!
There are a number of negative things going on right now (I’m aware that I’m choosing to imply a negative connotation to these things)… the loft, move in, mortgage, money transfers, job, holidays, etc… There’s A LOT going on, and the mind’s frantically following up on it all, and I have to admit, I think it’s loving it. After all the quiet of the first few weeks when I got back from Costa Rica, it’s like it got an injection of adrenaline or caffeine and could go wild… and it has :s
So today I looked back on things and realized that I’m moving further and further away from a Zen approach… I need to be present and grounded in this particular moment, as all that’s coming is only coming, it doesn’t impact me now. And thinking of everything that may come is overwhelming, and I feel awfully overwhelmed right now, with nobody to reach out to :s Even my Mum is MIA… which is another negative I’m trying to deal with… she was meant to be back from a 3 week holiday yesterday, but no call or email to confirm she’s returned. At least Google doesn’t have any updates on her name 