That’s what I just learnt. It’s been a few days since I meditated. I know – it’s bad. But life – sharing experiences with a good friend – took precedence. And it was great.
But this evening, I kept finding things to do to push off me meditating. And sure, once I sat down for my 15 mins of meditating, the mind was hectic. All over the place. Not controlled.
But then – some things just fit. I saw immense clarity. Things cleared – not completely, but much more so before meditation.
And it’s as Joko – the author of some of my favourite books – has been saying – the greatest ordeals give you the most need to practice. When you least want to practice is when you should, because it gives the practice greater focus, greater intent. It also provides incredible learnings. Powerful learnings.
For example – over the past few days / week, I’ve been chatting to this great guy who’s likely to move to Toronto from Vancouver. We’ve been having fun conversations, but I’ve felt myself get a bit caught up / bogged down by the whole experience. It suddenly hit me when in meditation that being with someone isn’t right for me right now – there’s too much I need to explore myself – mentally, physically, spiritually… or just in general, I don’t need to give it a label.
When the time is right… when the person is right… it’ll happen. This isn’t happening right now, and such a sense of calmness and clarity descended. I felt so good for it.
Don’t fight what doesn’t feel quite right… invest where the current is going… go with the flow. Don’t fight it. It’s through our thoughts that we chose to fight… rather than react to the pure awareness of what’s happening 