Next workout is done… and psyched again. Was a good workout… started pushing myself a bit more… upper the number of sets, and tried to maintain form throughout (not always possible!).
And you know… I realized something…
Motivation wise, I’ve typically used the gym to get lean muscle and tone. I’ve never really gone after mass / buffness before – even though I thought I was.
Going lean is great… it’s nice for some people, and I think it suits me, but I’ve never been really invested in it. I love the fit feeling – the feeling that you can take anything on. That’s amazing… but as a body, I’m not particularly hot on it.
But getting buff – now that’s something I’ve always wanted – I’m dying to get it. And that drive will make up a large part of my commitment / motivation. It’s a change – I’ve never done anything like this before. But right now, I don’t give a shit about all the pretty gay bois on the street… I don’t give a shit that I’m going to put fat on… I’m gonna grow big 
Hopefully 