Day 438

The achievements keep coming. 184lbs baby. Up 4lbs! Holy shit.

I was checking my log, and the last time I had an increase this great was back at the start of July… so two months later and I’m growing like crazy again. That’s 6lbs in 2 weeks. Holy crap. Wow. Seems like my goal of getting to 190lbs is going to appear quicker than I’d expected!

I’m also quite grateful for this large spike in weight, because it explains a lot. Firstly, it explains the outbreak of spots I have on my face right now. With all the hormones all over the place, it makes sense that the skin is having a hard time dealing with it all. I was hoping it wasn’t the antibiotics failing to work – but it’s just sad that they’re not strong enough to deal with the outbreak :(

Secondly, and I think this is something that I haven’t mentioned on here till now… on Monday I had a mini freakout in a bus on the way home from work. I had to stand in the central isle thingy, and when someone was leaving, I had to back onto this lady – with my backpack in her face. Not ideal by any means, but she kept whacking my bag from side to side. OK… it was my bad, but she just wouldn’t give up for a few seconds while the people left. Then, there was someone leaving the bus and he just glared at me. And I started swearing at him. Oops. Then I just kinda let rip. Sorry bus.

But it makes sense in the context of my hormones going crazy this week. With testosterone as high as it needs to be to create that much muscle (and fat :( ), I’ll have to deal with the negatives. But I can handle it as long as I know I’m getting something out of it!

So – this is wild. Up 21lbs since I started. And now more than half way to my goal of 200lbs (before I cut).

It’s also good because I’ve noticed that I’m not fitting quite as cleanly into some of my pants. At least there’s a reason for that. But – you know what – for gaining 21lbs and still fitting into the same sized pants, that’s pretty good going. And the fact that I’m still going to cut down to 190lbs in a few weeks / months, means I should be able to maintain my 32″ waist – which I hope since all my pants are 32″ LOL!!!!

Oh – another tangent… I’ve noticed my belly getting bigger… but it’s weird. It’s not getting fatter. At least it doesn’t appear to be getting fatter. It just seems to be pushing outward, and I think it’s because my core’s growing more and more and pushing the fat out!!! It’s wild. This is such a fantastic journey – hard as fuck… but so enjoyable.

And the hard as fuck comment brings me to today’s workout. Holy shit. It was painful! We did the dumbbell push press and I sucked royally at it. It’s so much harder than a normal bar push press. The weight is completely repositioned over the body – to such an extent that I found it really difficult to push my hips back and get the hip jerk. I just couldn’t maintain the weight of the dumbbells while pushing back (because my hips normally move forward to compensate for the weight of the shoulder press). So that wasn’t a great exercise for me :( The rest were good – painfully good :)

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Huge achievement

Something I forgot to mention earlier today – I was doing squats today as a warmup, and we pushed the weight up 10 or 20lbs… 20lbs I think. To 205lbs. That’s a substantial increase. And I managed it. It wasn’t easy, but I couldn’t managed a few more reps than I did (I did 5).

Once again this is a huge sign of strength. I can’t remember what I was doing a while ago as my one rep max, but it was around 200lbs. Maybe 185lbs. To now be able to manage 205lbs on multiple sets. Wow. Strength is there.

This is quite impressive.

PS – reason I remembered about that achievement is that as I was taking my tee off for bed, I could feel where the bar was lying on my neck. LOL. It made that much of an impression ;)

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Day 437

Today was hardcore. Probably similarly hardcore as the deadlift dropsets, but in a completely different way.

The legs dropset I’m working on right now is a lot slower. And a lot lighter. But it’s about large movements – lunges, squats, jumps, etc… So the feeling you get from the workout is wildly different to what you get on all the other workouts I’ve worked on. Not a bad things by any means – but just a considerable jolt to the system!

Which is good.

Adrian noticed a funny thing today – he mentioned how he now knows if he’s worked me hard, but I finally shut up. I thought that was cool. But seriously, after this workout, I could barely talk, let alone walk. It was INSANE. For lunch today I bought 3 chicken breasts! I just had to do it. I’m so exhausted and hungry. And this isn’t even the hardest workout – next week I have 5 sets to do. Today was only 4. Still – it kills me, but I’m not scared of it.

It’s weird – there’s this place I can go in my mind where you start to disassociate from all the crazy aches and pain that you’re going through. I started doing that in the final few sets of the lunges. Mind over body. Ouch. But it worked!!!

OK – that’s about it for now… more work and more eating. Lots more food :)

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Brian Anthony

Just looking on bb again, and Brian Anthony has done an amazing transformation – truly incredible :) Good on him!!!!

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EDT is up next

This is going to be phenomenally painful. Escalated Density Training (EDT) is up next after these dropsets. No fat loss program… just straight in.

BUT – there’s some respite. We’re going to take a week to week and a half off between the two. That means maybe 1 day in the gym in the meantime. Otherwise chilling, relaxing and primarily recovering and preparing for the hell that it to come :)

Bring it on.

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Day 435

This morning is quite nice. I’m sitting at home in front of my iMac writing this. Yes – I didn’t go into the gym this morning, and I feel good about it.

Reason why I didn’t go in – my legs were aching beyond normal yesterday. There’s a slight ache to them today. What you’d normally expect post workout – nothing too crazy. But still, if my legs are aching that much, I don’t want to push the body any harder than I need to. And given that today would be a cardio / abs day, it’s a good day to miss.

Adrian’s talked a lot about listening to your body – and there’s been a number of times when I’ve heard the body, but haven’t acted upon it. Aches were there, but not severe. I’d call this ache severe. I could barely walk! I was so bitchy yesterday – probably because of a number of things, but the ache would’ve certainly been a part of it. So it’s nice to know that I do listen to my body :)

One thing that I didn’t mention yesterday – chatting with Adrian, he was mentioning how a lot of his trainees are people that aren’t really committed. It seems as though they’ve spent the money on PT and are now forced to do something with it. I’ll say that’s what’s tough about a hard sales process – you’re going to convert people who don’t really want to be converted, or aren’t ready to deal with the implications of personal training (cos there are tonnes!). Sadly trainers have to deal with it…

It was one of the things that I noticed when I started training – during the conditioning phase (and I’m not not trusting that that was needed), but it was your same-old kind of training. It was good, but it wasn’t anything spectacular.

Now that we’re into the dropsets, etc… that’s where the training has really kicked up a notch. And Adrian mentioned yesterday that he’s only put maybe 10 people through this training plan, because he knows that most people couldn’t handle it. He discovers soon enough how masochistic his trainees are… seeing what they can put themselves through.

And we talked about ‘being good’ at training… about hitting that wall (lactic acid, mental, etc…) and just powering on through it. I can’t say that I’m that good yet… or if I ever will be… but I’m closer to that experience than I ever have been.

Question – do I wanna get that good!? Hmmm… maybe? It’s a new experience ;)

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Day 434

Today was a really sluggish day. I was kinda out of it. Which actually worked really well at the gym – because we really pushed today. Pushed hard.

It was upper body – managed to increase weight on the close grip bench press – it almost felt light. Wild. I remember that I wasn’t able to do that before!!!

Did more of the push ups on the ball. Didn’t have any help from Adrian this time in stabilizing the ball. But managed to do all 8-10! I could hardly believe it! Then, of course, the dropsets kicked in. That was somewhat painful. But manageable.

Got it all done in about 1hr15. Not bad. Still – pretty damn fast.

And sadly – today my hamstrings are KILLING me. I’m fumbling all around the place. It looks quite funny really. I am starting to hate the day after the day after aches. They SUCK!!!! I can’t wait to get this one out of the way :(

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Results

Fuck results.

I’ve gotta say it. Things are going great right now – improvements are coming. But the quantification of results is not going to help me. Today I was thinking about where I’m going to be when I reach 200lbs. I’ll need new pants! My tees’ll fit, but anything fitted won’t fit.

So realistically, when does it make the most sense to start stripping down… when it makes the most sense. Not based on a quantifiable number. As we go through this experience. Step by step.

Fuck quantifiable goals.

I’ll still follow them though eh?

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What does the gym mean to me?

Interesting question. And something that I’ve been thinking a bit about today.

Long time back in the UK – when I was working for Orange – a question came up as a group – what people do to relax. I never saw the gym as relaxation, but people thought it was. They thought it was a bit part of my life, and that that’s what I did to take time out and relax.

There’s a lot of truth in that.

I guess what spurred this on again, is from a conversation a while ago with Adrian (apparently he inspires a lot of conversations)… on a side tangent, I’ll say that conversation with Adrian is quite interesting. He’s not like most other guys I know. Very straight… he’s typically not the kinda person I’d normally find myself hanging around with. Which is what makes the conversation so intriguing and reflective.

So what does training / going to the gym mean to me?

I think it’s a lot of things. It’s a lot of right. Whereas in the rest of my life I let things slip – I am truly dedicated and focussed on achieving what I’m aiming for at the gym. It’s been 6 months of PT now. My nutrition and exercise habits have changed – pretty much forever. There’s no way I can go back.

But it’s the dedication. It’s the balance. It’s the moment by moment consideration of what’s best for me – and going for it. It’s such a new and fresh experience – the mental pathways are there – and I wish I could transfer them to one big area of my life. I’ll have to look into that sometime – but it ain’t gonna be now!

There’s a time out aspect too. Time in the gym is my own. No one elses. It’s a departure from the rest of my day. Nothing else is the same as the gym. It’s a refuge as well as a place where you kill yourself.

It’s intensely masculine. You can be yourself – you kill yourself. You break yourself down. I do what I’ve never done before. And it’s amazing.

And it’s physical. Intensely physical. Painful. That’s what I don’t get – it’s quite sadistic when you get down to it – to the extent that we’re training right now. Anything that’s happened prior to now is like a bed of roses – but I love where I’m at right now. I get it. You feel a part of a group. A group that gets how hard this work is. That you don’t get a free pass. That you can’t cheat physique (well – you can – but not without consequences which are sometimes quite visible).

So it’s many things.

But I think the physical nature of it is almost key. It’s a refuge – a call to the wild. This ties it in with my longing to do more trekking, adventure, etc… This helps me bring it to the city. On an almost daily nature.

So training is a lot of things to me. All great things. And I haven’t even started to talk about the improvements to health and fitness – they’re kind of side effects but probably the most important ones.

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Travis Hitt

Apparently I can’t stop trying to find new pics. This is crazy.

I’m also finding the more and more I compare, the less content I’m feeling. I should stop. But stopping is hard. Argh. Training’s harder though – so training wins.

Anyways – this is Travis Hitt

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